Thursday, February 20, 2014

mass appeal

Mass appeal in front of this box
Is as artificial
As the love we feel for reality-show stars
Rubbing one out to some trashy pornstar,
and then styling our hair to match.

We are a pantheon of contradictions
Pathetic with our strength
Treacherous In our ignorance
Cheap in our respective senses of worth

I want to be more inspiring; but I don’t want to lie.

Bit by bit

Our flag rolls in the wind with a pleasant fabric clap
in some parallel to a reality that I inhabit
a voice that scampers like a mouse
 through the caverns of this great bungalow  
A reflection of the memories
A whisper to the antiquities of all the people that have lived here
they have been numerous and long
 slipping around in the walls at night searching for the morsels that patience generates
thoughtlessly they exist
as echoes of feelings linger
in the places that they don’t understand
specters of desires that once were held but have dissolved into the landscape
 as the mumbling noise of the street codes for all kinds of sin
and none of us are above it:
she did it in the other room  
while her surrogate children and her husband watched television
presumably to thumb her nose at all the cheap pointlessness
one last time
in the same place, infected with the same disease
hearing the shrieks of the metal makers at night
I wonder if it was the mice in the walls
That coerced her over the edge
The little souls that enter your house at night taking all that you have

Little vermin that rob you, bit by bit 


Monday, February 3, 2014

Crystaline

Perhaps if you didn’t
Do those drugs
Date people addicted to drugs
Consume and fall into the trap
that consumes you even more
Keeping you awake well into all hours of the night and day
Perhaps if you; Got some sleep
Dreaming has a way of keeping you sane
there are simple things that bind us to this reality
the things that are so captivatingly important
Are consuming you
They grind you into something else
Transforming you into a kind of creature that
Cannot see it’s own reflection.
It’s like watching a tragic pantheon unfold before me
And I cannot look away, and I am bound to observe
Can you not see?! This substance and I we are enemies.
This drug has dissolved lovers right in my hands
This drug has flipped cars, murdered children, destroyed hope
this drug is condensed heartache
it is a fire that burns this reality
there is no way of touching it without consequence
and yet, I imagine little event horizons tearing into our worlds
because in your world there seems to be no word for “addiction”





Friday, January 24, 2014

Highgrove

You don’t thrive out here
Under the perma-sun
And when it rains it pours-
But it doesn’t rain often.

The words fail
Within the rift of our many languages
My heart trying to reach across the void
To put a hand over a shoulder
To if only to say;
“I too am only human.”

Here the wind burns.
Not only for the chapping zephyr
That spins each day into memory
Here the winds burn
Deep into the lungs;
Asphyxiating us in smog
Life is valued less here.

living by tooth and claw.
…And shotgun
They fight with words and fists and groups of people with similar mindframes in regard to their willingness to become violent    
Learning to grow around it
Letting the tendrils of ourselves creep through the minutia
Where so many of them are just waiting for the tide to rise.

Tina binds this place like tetanus
At night I see them walk the streets like wraiths
looking for trash, cigarette butts, spare change
sniffing out opportunity in its rawest forms 
like shadows become animate while wearing hoodies 
unconsciously searching out their desires
she doesn’t give a shit what she turns them into  

we band together in our struggle
we persist and we prevail
but we don’t thrive
In this sphere of influence that remains contained   

Somewhere deep within
Behind layers of pollution
Beyond substance abuse and neglect
out in the whipping winds
only wickedness takes root

    

Fond

Is the word.
I am Fond of you.
Fond, like the ire of Los Angeles
In some kind of vicious kiss
In some kind of raunchy-perversion
Passionate in it’s self-sustenance
Vile in all the right ways.
The look I give that city is the look I have for all of the things
 …its worth knowing
Like the combination to your lock
like a fire that could lay waste to this refuse
and put some water on this sand
the world is changing; faster than has ever been known
and yet we seek to pause time in the hopes that it will last any longer

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Pyre

It is this desiccation of self that wears us into these thin places.
This constant battle with ever-resurgent enemies that never tire.
 And we’re out here like some bumps on a log waiting for the next onslaught-
Bring the noise
Our voices will be suffocated in the smog and scattered to the wind
even the train has no respect for the dead
we will not be remembered, we will not mean shit in the years that follow us
we would be lying to ourselves to think otherwise
we would be betraying ourselves to think that we’ll ever reach absolution
but I wonder often, why you teach it
proliferating the idea while despising it, while harping on the invalidity giving it cause for celebration
vindicating through advertisement
at the same time; I am jaded
I am corrupted through my hate
in this contempt
I am addicted, in a way that rings true beyond myself
Like so many fiends, seeking the blood of the innocent in the night
I cannot be satiated in this way
It would be like a vampire to a robot
our souls are the butts of jokes
We will never see heaven.   

Thursday, November 14, 2013

the godless invisceral

some articulate helix
words crumble in this plane
will of men wanes in the darkness
Where they are faced to confront
All of the realities that lies beyond this single sheet world
my reality, willing to extinguish others
My reality willing to triumph into the night
Willing to conquer and conquest over, and within, and under…
What exactly?
My reality; unable to conquer itself
Unable to find the batteries after the flood
After the combat that led our ship so far astray into this vaguely charted sea
when I say the words
The response is cheap, and honest
the truth is the truth
violence is real in a way that this invisceral sphere is not
this life is not even sustainable-
written in arcane language that becomes obsolete by the time its printed
 There are places that your god cannot reach
there are depths to this world that are reaching for you
in light and in darkness
it is unfair and unlikely that things will change
it is unfair and unlikely that things will remain as they are
all the unraveling of this world will be trite and forgotten
in the instant all present realities are extinguished