Dragonsoul

As memories that I don’t feel anymore

As fleeting as trash blowing in the wind through Van Nuys hell

Her mascara runs violently

“You’ve said all the words.”

Like the nostalgia of evaporating power

It seems real but it comes from some unknowable place

As silent preparations of power consume my every thought

As spreading feathers, as anvil clouds gather

within some deafening moment

reigning a kind of squalor

in some space beyond then and now

shedding influence on interpretive expressions 



As if careful in carelessness 

And still these are the grey skies

The static whispers of bitter telepathy

Before the storm touches down

And the wreckage of their machines

Framed in sunbleached iron  

leaves bleeding out in the downpour

As if the shrieking of the trains

Makes you good at fighting tweakers

And this is the reality of which I am forged

As weeds growing in the cracks of the freeway

Within these stone pillars, these graffitied overpasses

There is a lingering sense of upheaval

In the foundations of precedence

The seeds of now were planted so long ago

soaking up polluted water

flowering into the contaminated reality

where we insulate ourselves

in bubbles of metal and glass

only to watch them pop against one another

as a ravenous god consuming sacrifices

a tinge of nature waits  

to the roar of thunder within ourselves 

in the lightning behind our eyes

reverent, and inherently our own

flitter

In the dialectic purr of our language

Obsessive in a detached way

As a permissive control

the intersections of conflicted energy-

break them, in the steel of our steps

let them hear the ruthlessness of our language

taste the sand

feel the suffering

endure the hatred

as it is a privileged hell

for which we are borne

petals of discontent

desiccating under pressure

peeling from us like celebrations past

hearing in some harsh bassline

the end of our civilization

Broken to incompetence

a natural order emerges

in the shadows of the titans

that once seemed so real

I sense the shadows within

have rendered this moment

as marrow from the freshly slain

this reigning catharsis

As the moon rises between rocks

Turning us to perfected forms

Casting a welcomed silhouette

Upon the hazy mirage of unspoken futures

cielos violetas

estamos la tormenta 

es que es como

la tierra levantando en el viento

y ellos gritan

inexplicativo

en este momento

porqure se siento como

la tierra sabía æones pasando

que llorar sin lagrimas

chillido en la vos de un caballero

sutil, elegante

como el pico  de una vespa

que paralizando

despues comiendo la victimas del interno afuera

en los conneciones neblados

como el espejismo en la distancia

estoy empasando mirar el futuro

como la secuencia del infinativo momentos ahorita

en furiosidad escondondito en pétalos de fabrico

en una choro de huellas silencias

nos cantamos por una mayora madre

en voses susurros en miel

estamos el yermo

hecho de corasones enternos

adonde mi amor sofocarse

en un ahogando suave abrasa

sienta como bebiendo profundamente

despues de sed familial

torrencial en las grietas

curativo abajo un cielo violeta

y sientas como la verdad,

es obvio

no hay perfección de alguen interpretación

en tiempo hay solamente las momentas completa

en una pureza más lejos del velo

Hessian

In my mind there are the hooves of horses

Thundering against the ground

The flinch of predatory eyes

Criticizing some familiar landscape

As a hailstorm

On some freezing night

pelting down against the earth

in hateful ribbons

I fell them in our ancient ways

warhammer in hand, claymore coming down  

we drive them to the slaughter

patiently

in a conquest where the blade of my mind

is filed against the stone of my soul

there is something magnificent yet empty

in the inertia of our agency

in the wood-grain texture

as hard ripples of development through time

Why are we like this?

Why are we such hungry birds?

juxtaposibly Insatiable

As chicks in a nest, as raptors on the horizon.

ravens to the aftermath

of that which we were born to create

44/100

I’m trying to catch it

In words.

Like some buzzing prey item

Wafting through my doorway

Its little turret of eyes averting  

repelling down the frame once it realized I was on to it

I thought of catching it on my hand and putting it in the living room

Then, I thought, how the doorway is probably already a decent spot

There’s probably a reason it’s here

This little jumping hunter

Equipped with all the repelling cable it could ever need

Chose to guard my doorway

And I felt so humbled as I looked to the dog on my bed and the cat in the reflection behind me.

This is a pretty good crew.

Gigantic jumping spider and all.

As I throw myself around my place

Grateful to have a place at all.

But I mean that—

Somewhere in all of this there is a place that is mine.

Unique.

As I float backwards in the hot springs of the desert

Looking up at a star crested sky

whipped to sharp peaks

somewhere, my shemagh sits at the bottom of that oasis

returned to the flow of the underground river

that somehow connects the desert in fractures.

Spellbreaker

Shaken from a torpor

I awaken upon touchdown

From some other landscape

Where a moment of passion

Like a spell being undone.

a curse broken upon impact.

Connecting by tearing away

The little tokens that have haunted me

And wish to be done with them

In thought and practice,

psychological and physical

visceral and ethereal

in a hunger for the coming hours

excitement trickling through the dam

constructed

from so many inexperienced mishandlings

as if putting a depth-charge

the wreckage of the past

as an unnatural tsunami

rising up from the cenotes of self.   

Agency

Like a dynamo

It charges and charges

Forward

Faster

Everything, all at once

Build, create, make,

Sit, write

,

(comma)

Like a kiln

Hardening objects of utility

In a hellish flame

That takes weeks to subside.

As if plotting for the future is a kind of internally contained firestorm

Forged in utility

I am beginning to feel its drawbacks acutely

As the machinery seems to wear out

From the brattle of repetition

Gears slip in fatigue

Muscles fail from exhaustion

Time grinds in slow and measured pieces

As if evaporating

To the forest

Lost in the steel and machines

Windborne hallucinations

And it subsides as suddenly as it happens

Though those around me can see I have lensed

Elsewhere.

Elsewhere.

It comes like sizzling static

The whisper of writhing chains

scraping leaves in the wind

elsewhere.

I hear them

 Purring of a friends voice.

Clear,

with a certain rawness I appreciate

in a wholeness that seems familiar

I look to the stars in yearning

I am bigger than my body

Familiar to more than myself

With an agency over this and other realms

As if being all and nothing

Whole and fractured

the nuances of restlessness grow like weeds

blocking out paths

That used to lead me

home.