Sunday, May 24, 2015


It glistens like a far off shore
A white horizon into darkness
In the coils of the rope
I know that I know how to tie
Summoning the raptor
That dark and matronly figure
arising every so often
in the corners of what fears I have left
I know I should feel afraid of these things, but I don’t.
And, I wish you would just take me.
I wish I didn’t have to commit to everything
the nature of this reality;
commitments to our ideas
littered with paradoxes
irritating in their existence
why can’t I know?
Why don’t I have the efficacy to manifest this?
I have grown tired of fighting
Tired of the mind grinding itself
Trying to penetrate into this thing
there is a thing beyond this
there is a reason we dream
yet so debilitated
in this ephemera
I cannot stand it.
rage, that boils within me
murderous in its implication
it could be so much more
it could have been so much better
I cannot repair it-
Not in this lifetime.
Another of these paradoxes
Transmuting rage into hate
And this hate becomes a weapon
That is not for this “civilized” world
For I have felt like a wild animal for too long
it is all that I seem to be, it is all that I am
why should the world share in my traits?
it already has enough
I have had enough
As viscerality absolves civilization
I would pay any price to no longer feel
And in this way I am bound to them,
In the feeling that things will change
As we wander the æther together
Endlessly searching for some kind of solution

Friday, May 1, 2015


For what you profess/ all that it’s worth
For what you claim as yours/ that I have an am
drowning in the duplicity
the passive-aggressive manner for which you have played
victim and oppressor
from the perch that you peck them away
one revolting, lipstick-covered-cigarette at a time
the stench of the years that you have lost
cannot merely be smudged away
in the way that abuse never subsides
pungent and permeating into everything that once held sway    
looking down your nose
at the migrant workers that have worked under your pitiless gaze
micromanaged as if compensation
for every wasted year
unable to understand that the years were wasted
in an assertion of control

reminiscence like a black banner that rolls in the wind ceaselessly
a monument of contempt without compassion
you loose control of your body
your nervous system fails you
the disease wracks you

I imagine what it must feel like
putting makeup on that skull of a face
Knowing all the glory that has faded,
Where the dreams that have subsided in the tides of time 

explain to me the struggles of having servants that; “don’t work hard enough”
tell me of the millions you have lost, One. More. Time.
Speak at me of your misplaced perceptions
-the struggle of the privileged
-the pain of the served
your sovereignty diminishes in these twilight years
where all that you have is the lasting memory
of what may never have been truly yours

through slatted rays,
I watch as the wolves of yourself
close in upon their quarry

ready to tear into the nerves of your delusion.