irreverency

Before there is a placation to hunger

Before the solution there is

Violence. There is abuse, there is your way of dealing with me

That must be like some animal

That cannot be contained

hunger before there is concern

hatred before there empathy

I hate that I must call you my own

And be treated as such.

There is an obsession within you; that has in it

Only the will to dominate, a madness that has spawned out of impunity

a proliferation of impunity within myself

though you might feel as though you deserve mercy

You do not

You deserve what you have made

deserve what you have

And that is me

When time comes for your enfeebled old frame to take is last shuffling steps in this world know that I will be there if only to make them more painful

Know that I will wring the will out of you like the blood of mine you have spilled

I will crush you spirit so far into nothing

You will beg me for death

all the hurt you have brought me I have saved, archived in this unfair world

it will open up on you

as you opened up on me

a child

a monster

a torturer that that could put nothing before themselves

twist this world into a terrific spectacle

until nothing is left, but the way things could have been

to pass from this place as irreverently as you embraced me