String of Steel Pearls

I wrap you around my knuckles

I hide within your embrace

The destruction of my extensions

I let explode upon your face

will you still tread Upon me

attempt to push me underhand

crush that which I have created

so that I might ‘understand’

have you seen how fat you are?

And slow within your mind

Your thoughts have become so lazy

And your actions so unkind

Long I have spent the water

To let this place decay

The tyranny of your behaviors

Bleaching the fading day

cower before your father

Like the runt that you became

Under the wrath of my violent hand

That will treat you all the same

 Nothing is ever recurring

Like those comforts I never knew

dark nights where you hide your shame

With that heart that never grew

And vacantly I say hello

Detached as anything can be

I know the perverse truth

How you could never see

within the myriad of things

whose value escaped your eyes

those acute angles eviscerated   

the fabric of all your lies

where I once sought the synergy

I now seek only the infection

Of those clouded memories

And that distorted recollection

As you cut back all the tendrils

Where I sought to help you grow

You deserve the misery you planted

Within the treason of my flow

In the fading nightmare

That they fought so hard to keep

phantoms wait so surely

for a mind that remains asleep

because your slipping under

as the riptide and the shore

I will never forget who you were

Or how you sought for more

I could have done better

With support Instead of fists

 As your concern for me exploded

In bitter little trysts

it made me strong and hard

chains of folded steel

Repeatedly you crushed my hopes

And ground them into meal

I took the talc of my hopes

buried them in the sand

I may always walk alone

But I’ll do so as a man