Freight Bombing

Reading the boxcars

Goliath iron makers

Deep into who-knows-where for who-cares-why

Echoes Rolling on into a sick world of clanking metal

the counter-culture

is held under the knife

Each painting triggering a flash of déjà vu

past experiences that never took place

Pile chemicals into the immolation

burning my heart

infect me more deftly, I seek nothing

Because I am through with it

Would it be fair to say: “I missed you” ?

A vacant longing for a faceless plethora of color

All those human flowers plastered on those great wyrms

In a vulgr attempt to linger, but not be forgotten

Because we would rather die than be prisoners

In this dead world of iron and stone

 that tore the trees from my grasp

to leave the world a better place

trivial justifications against a barren backdrop

trivial sideways words, to combat paper shields  

do not betray me now  when they have lain waste to the beauty we keep

when we have forsaken so much to carry on

I sought to be invisible

As long as I could be seen by one other

Who could see me for what I am

That person is a fiction, like many things

Forget me! Forget that I passed through this place

Could you not see me for what I am?

For what  I do, or for what I mean

And I fall amongst the worthless in this world of academics

I am of the dark family

That sacrificed so much to be this way

it has been a  long time coming

we are down to the wire

where I crushed my soul into my hands

and forced it out of them

 it was what i could do, but not nearly enough

to help anyone see

it kills me to know that my children have been forfeited

the leviathan has fallen, we simply decorate its carcass

that one day others may pluck it’s scales

and hold them to the sky to hide from the raining wrath

as we slip through the wasteland of metal tracks

breathing beasts  in the frost of the night

sauntering between the agreeable world we sacrificed

the collapse is all-encompassing

the feeble attempts of reconstructing my flowers

into a world of metal that roars on into the night

I forgive you.

But I can never trust another again.